oh Allah, 

i can feel the kifarah.

seriously, i felt so down rn.

i dont know.

i felt emptiness.

im trying to change,

but people dont understand on what im tryin to do now.

i just want to stay away from society.

society is suck.

yes, i part of society, 

and im tryin to be a good society.

not a judgemental society.

put all the blames on me,

aku redha. aku redha.

mungkin aku bukan orang yang alim dari dulu.

dengan kosong basicnya agama.

but im tryin, cs i believed Allah will see the effort bukan hasil.

tolong, aku minta tolong sangat-sangat.

hidup aku penuh dengan tekanan,

depression abt relation with family, friends.

about study (most depression ever)

and also getting more nearer with Allah.

aku minta satu, satu ja.

faham aku,

kalau aku depress, aku depress yg sangat teruk.

ya aku seeking for attentions.

attentions yang boleh membuatkan diri aku tak memudharatkan.

thats all.

okay...

i dont know how i want to describe my feeling now.

Oh Allah, may you accept this changes.

Amin.

May Allah ease everything, dearself ;)